my sleeping tutorial
Almost 99% of the time I fall asleep "involuntarily" while consuming some type of media like music or videos.
I hate having to turn off my music.
I get some kind of FOMO from not listening to music. I guess it's not necessarily FOMO, I just don't know the word to describe it. I love listening to music so much that I don't want my precious time with music to be spent elsewhere doing something that doesn't involve it, like... sleeping.
A possible solution for this would be for me to put on music and go to sleep. The problem with this is:
- I get too distracted and don't end up sleeping
- I get angry that I'm getting distracted
- My listening stats get messed up in last.fm so it doesn't seem genuine/real
- When I'm sleeping I'm not intently listening
- I like listening to my music in my headphones, but sleeping with headphones is so uncomfortable when you're a side sleeper
It's not that I haven't fallen asleep to music before because I 100% have, I just don't like doing it. It also just takes longer.
Falling asleep while watching Youtube or a show is the best option for me. Preferably Youtube, where I typically watch informative or creative videos that don't have much of a story to them. I like watching Youtube videos over shows because I hate spoilers. Waking up in the middle of an episode of a show and figuring out how much I remember before falling asleep by scrubbing through episodes to only reveal spoilers is just frustrating and annoying. On the other hand, the videos that I watch on Youtube don't really have spoilers. I sometimes watch lore videos about things I already know about, or just random topics that pique my interest at that moment. When I wake up from falling asleep to one of these I either don't care enough about it anymore or I just watch it from the beginning, skipping the information I remember. In the case that I had a queue, I can just go through my watch history to see what videos I missed while I was sleeping.
I knock out so quickly watching videos. The perfect concoction is eating a meal,1 then laying in my bed to watch something.
The other 1% (it's probably more than this, but anyways) of the time is when I fall asleep "voluntarily," choosing to sleep instead of it happening while I'm consuming media. If I haven't gotten enough sleep and my body has reached it's limit I choose to sleep. I also choose to sleep when I'm hungry in hopes that the hunger will go away. Most times it's too late for me to be noisy in the kitchen and if I do eat, brushing my teeth again, when I have already done so prior, feels like a chore. I choose to go to sleep to avoid all that.
Also dreaming. Ahhh dreaming. I go to sleep to dream.2 It's like my own little escape from reality. Yes sometimes dreams can suck or they can be nightmares but when they're good, they are so good. If I ever need an escape from reality I put my head on my pillow in hopes to dream.