I don't remember...

18 Apr, 2026

2026. Wednesday. April 15. 3:15PM.

Lunch break over. A quote pops in my head.

"Must've not been that important, if you can't remember."

I was either told this, or I've read it a lot somewhere. Maybe both! It got me thinking. I forget important stuff all the time. I should blog about this. So here I am. Fearing I would forget this thought, I searched for my pen and something to write on. Ended up with slow-drying ink and slippery label paper. Didn't matter to me I just needed it out of my head and in writing. Folded it. Stuck it in my pocket.

I went to the library later that day, tried to find the paper. Couldn't find it anywhere. Checked my mini spiral notebook, which I keep in my bag at all times. Treasure found. I don't remember how it got there... When did I even have the time to put it in between the front cover and the first page? Who knows. Not me. Unfolded the label paper. Barely legible, ink smudged. Laid out my new A5 Grid notebook (mentioned here) and wrote "Blog idea". Next to it, colon symbol, "Can't remember(?)← Possible title".

Now, enough forgetting and back to what I wanted to say. I forget important things all the time. Appointments. Birthdays (this one I've been pretty good with—thank you me, calendar app, and my planner, which I received from my wonderful friends on my birthday). Essential items. Mostly things I tell myself not to forget, due to their importance. This is common for many people, at least the people in my life. I know the quote isn't really an attack, but more of a "reassurance thing." Maybe it's the anxiety. Am I overthinking this? I don't know. Still, I thought it would be interesting to write about.

Some more thinking...

"If he wanted to, he would."

That's one a lot of people say. What if "he" forgot? I'm probably taking this one as a personal attack as a bad responder. Not probably. I know I am. In past friendships, I got shit on a lot for this. To be fair, we were young, and I was undiagnosed.¹ My friends now are more understanding. I'm diagnosed. Grateful. I have a bad memory.

Something will feel so important to me, but I forget. In the occasion that I do remember said thing, I still deem it important. Without the remembering even being there, I feel the importance.

"But I don't remember our words well, in fact I can scarcely recall one thing she said of all the things which at that time seemed so important and vivid." —Winter Love, Han Suyin

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